Help me believe- Kirk Franklin

This song ministered to me in so many ways during my Ketamine treatment. I listened to it while paralyzed under the effects of the drug. And my hearing was really the only thing that remained clear. And every single word spoke to me, as if God knew these were my very thoughts and desires of my heart. How great is our God! There is no one who loves me like Jesus does. He is THE REASON and HE will bring about my total healing.

May I be used of You, Lord.

"I just want to write you a letter.
I have to be very honest with you right now.
I don't really know how to say this... "

I wanna believe
But I'm having a hard time seeing past
what I see right now,
I see right now

I wanna be free
But when I try to fly I realize
I don't know how,
no one showed me how

Wish I could see that this mess I'm in
will really work out for my good,
you said it would

So, if you can hear me,
can you give me a sign cause
I don't feel you like I should,
please if you could

My faith is almost gone,
I can't hold on much longer,
take this cup from me

Help me Believe
Can I believe
Let Me believe
I wanna believe
I'm no good on my own,
please give me another chance
It's hard to believe in what I can't see
To give you my will
cause you're what's better for me
You can look in my eyes and see
I wanna believe, believe, believe, believe

(I want you to know)
I wanna believe
If I never hear I'm sorry I can let it go,
gotta let you go

Cause, it's killing me.
(it's killing me)
Jesus you know how it feels
cause you've been hurt before,
don't wanna hurt no more

I'm trying to hear you speak,
but my heart is growing weaker,
take this cup from me


Help me Believe
Can I Believe
Let me Believe
I wanna Believe
I've been here before
and can't take that hurt again
It's hard to believe in what I can't see
To give you my will
cause you're what's better for me
You can look in my eyes and see
I wanna believe, believe, believe, believe


Believe
Believe


I wanna believe
when I close my eyes on this side
I'll wake up with you,
more in love with you

And, and finally, you will say my race
it is over and my work is through,
cause I believed in you

I know dark nights will come
and some days there'll be no sunshine
and you're too far to see


Help me BELIEVE. LORD YOU promised me my total healing and restoration. i am holding you to that promise!!!! You are not a man that you should lie. You are the SAME, yesterday, today and Forever!